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[May. 8th, 2005|11:26 am] |
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well it was a busy week alst week...i'll start on thursday i guess...
thursday was a big day for me, vincent was six months old. this is a milestone, half a year. it really sounds cliche but i can't believe that he is only six months old, and i can't believe he is already six months old. it feels like i have been his mother since the beginning of time, and i think this is because i became who i am now the day he was born. i really was born with him. my life will never feel meaningless again, i am a mother, i have a person for whom i am the provider, the one who creates his universe. it is an honor and a responsibility that i only thought i understood before he was born. everything else is what seems meaningless now. the perspective i have on the world since he entered it is radically different, so clear, so obvious. obvious what is important, what is stupid, what is noble and what is pathetic. how to behave, what to do, what decision is the right one is now so obvious. i love him more than i can even begin to explain. watching him develop and learn each day is humbling, but also empowering. so that was thursday. we went and did the six month pictures...i am really happy that i have kept this going, i am going to appreciate the month by month progression of his growth. subtle but amazing changes are taking place. i should line them up and look at them so far...hmmm, a project for later.
anyway, friday was not so interesting, we hung out at home and then met amy to pick up supplies for claire's shower. i did spy some shower things that inspired me for my sister's shower, and decided that the theme will be pink and silver, like, pink flowers in silver vases, shiny silver balloons with pink ribbons, silver cups with pink candy, etc. more ideas to follow, i am sure. pale pink, because that is what she wants, and shiny silver because i want it to be unique, and i barf over pink pink pink. i think it will be really cool, what i have in my head. mom and i are going shopping for this next wednesday. i am excited, now if i can manage to convince her to pick ariel over kayla as a first name...
saturday was all shower...many more errands, then off to wylie to set it up. great house. i think the spread looked awesome, i am a glue gun addict. claire looked beautiful, of course, and seemed relaxed and happy. i hope that is how she felt. vincent was so good for me, he is so personable. is my endless socialization of him paying off? i hope so.
and today, well, today is my first mother's day. i am excited about it, i know alot of people think that it is a hallmark creation, but it is actually not. this is one version of its origins for anybody interested http://www.chiff.com/a/mothers-day-origins.htm. anyway, i think that being an athiest has forced me, in a way, to decide on secular and personal meanings for all of the holidays, because they all have an original meaning that is either religious or commercial, neither of which is my thing. so, i will continue to do so with mother's day. i have always loved it, as far as celebrating my mom, so on we go.
more on that later. i gotta go get ready. |
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I couldn't believe how good Vincent was yesterday! It gives me hope to see good people having good kids. I need to see that! ;)
thanks, he was good, wasn't he? i have dragged him to more stuff in the last six months...he's already been on three plane rides! i really want him to be social, can you tell??
It was great meeting you, and I hope we hang again soon! :)
when are we going to hang again? do you venture to town? my place has about five places to let vincent play, so i welcome guests! seriously, i would love to have you over.
Whenever you like- seriously! I'm phone-phobic but I'm *always* online (whatever *that* may reveal about me, heh) so you can always shoot off an email to get to me. I don't work so I'm pretty available, sleep schedule permitting.
What a beautiful thing to say about being a mother. So encouraging to someone who is terrified of what my identity will become when she comes along...
I've been talking to steve non-stop about Vincent, I wish I had taken pic's to show him
and, I can't begin to thank you enough, the shower was wonderful and just how I wanted it to be! everything was beautiful!!
i still worry about "losing" myself sometimes, but then i usually realize that the parts of me that were lost were garbage that fell away when i looked at vincent for the first time.(notably so far, being competitive and getting wasted) i miss some of my garbage sometimes, but then i just look at him, and i mean instantly, the negativity is GONE...
i am so happy you liked your shower...you will always remember it and so it needed to be just what you wanted.
if you wanna show steve pictures of vincent, i will email you our yahoo photo album. pictures galore! | |
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